I went to church yesterday and one of the verses read during lecture was about our Almighty God sacrificing His Son so that we may be saved despite all our sins. And I suddenly remembered one thing-------our dreadful EXTEMPO in our speech class last Wednesay. Argh! I still can't get over my epic failure that day. Oh wait, let me correct that. Since it bothered me through our next class which is Business Statistics, I guess it would be appropriate to make it plural and say EPIC FAILURES. Grrr...
Well I can't actually complain about the grade that I got because I'm very much convinced that I deserved it. I just can't stand the thought that "Gosh! That was embarassing."
Thinking about it is just torturing so I thought, "For my peace of mind, why not blog about it here?"
So here I am.
I admit that I'm not really good at expressing my thoughts right then and there. I'm just... terrible! Have you experienced the feeling that you know what to say, you know what you WANT to say, but you just can't express it the way you want it to? Well I always do. That's why I've not always been very much active in class recitations. I was always afraid of making mistakes and of not being able to express my thoughts well. And you know what? I've always hated myself for not having that confidence, especially during those times when none of your classmates could give the answer and you know it (or at least you've guessed it right). Same goes for instances when you and your friends are talking about stuff.
Now you may say, "Alright, I can see why she was disappointed with what she got during speech class. I don't get her point. How does this relate to each other?"
Don't worry. You'll get it along the way.
You know what? I've been thinking, "Maybe if I've given myself enough trust, I think I would've done better."
Have you heard about the "Law of attraction?"
Well the law of attraction states that if you think positively, you attract positive energy and if you think negatively,you attract negative energy. (something like that)
I've always given this piece advice to my friends but I seem to find it difficult to apply it to myself at some circumstances.
And I believe that was the biggest mistake I made that day. Instead of encouraging myself that I could do it, I sort of dwelled on the thought that I was terrible at those stuff which made me more nervous and in effect increased the chances of me screwing up.
Not making that mistake. This is what I would've probably said.....
"Good afternoon ladies and gentlemen. Before I begin, I would like thank all of you in advance for listening and for bearing with me because I myself admit that I'm not really good at delivering
extemporaneous speeches. It's not like you have a choice or anything but yes, you have to listen to me :)
(this is exactly how i started it..after this, everything fell apart. I may have sounded and looked confident ,but all my nervousness took its toll on my thoughts and it showed. )
The addage that I got reads: "Love is a fire whose devouring flames all earthly ills are consumed" by Robert Bridges
(ok. so when i first read the paper that I got, I was like "What?" and from there, I freaked out. we were given 2 minutes to organize our thoughts but sad to say, it wasn't enough for me to compose myslelf)
So what is Love? well unlike many people here in this room, I haven't got any clever or wise quotations to define it, but the way I understand it--- Love is synonymous to the word care. Because it's when you truly care about something or someone, you can say that there is this thing called "LOVE".
For me,there are different classifications of love. There is this love for your friends, your relatives, for your special someone,for people you don't know, and the Greatest love of all.
What about earthly ills? I believe these are like sinful actions that is prevalent here on earth.
Now you may ask, how does love consume these earthly ills?
Example
When you love someone, you give him/her value. You do anything to protect it and never would you let it get hurt. This consumes or overcomes the sin of selfishness and self centeredness because it makes you think of the welfare of other people than yourself. Same goes in caring for,things, people you may not know and other living creatures here on earth.
But among the different classifications of love that I have mentioned beforehand, I would like to emphasize one thing--the Greatest Love.
Our Almighty God, out of his love for us, sacrificed His Son Jesus, so that we may be saved inspite of all our sins and it is out of our love for Him that we decide to sacrifice our own earthly desires just to follow his commandments.I believe that this example alone, without any further explanation,would give justification to what Robert Bridges has said, that "Love is a fire whose devouring flames all earthly ills are consumed"
To sum it up, love is care; love is powerful;love consumes earthly ills. Without love, none of us would be here. Let us share with each other the love that we have received from Him and we may all live in harmony.
Thank you."
Do you think that would've fiitted in 2 minutes?
Sometimes I talk a bit fast but understandable so I think that would've been just enough. Of course it wouldn't be exactly as it is but it would at least be something like that. :)
what's the point of me posting this?
Well I usually find it hard to get over things like this when I don't get to reinstate or make my points. So here, I hope that I was able to express it well and I'm hoping that this would finally give me a peace of mind. :)
On the bright side, it was written on my paper that I already had good nonverbal communication so the only thing i would have to work on would be my on the spot organization of ideas. Good luck on that. :))
Law of attraction.... positive energy...
AJA! :D
P.S
I'm guessing you already get the point why I remembered our activity in speech class while I was in church.. :)
***thank you very much for the time. Gracias :) ***
4 comments:
Hi classmate... I admit also my incapability to think fast as they (those who are born genius, you know) can, and puzzle up those pieces of idea into visible picture. Sad to say I flunked also in that activity. I accepted the reality that LANGUAGE/ENGLISH/SPEECH class is not meant for me, but I think the FAITH that I have with me right now to excel and to be in that particular field is not enough to overcome those impediments along the way.
Anyway, I am proud of you. You are so intelligent in all aspects, you are versatile :). You are great in speech; like what Ma'am Lariza commented on you, you have the skill Dom. I believe that you can surpass your difficulty to organized ideas in a less possible time. Believe in God, and He will do the rest. I want you to share this line from Bible that I have picked, "Delight yourself in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart.(Psalm 37:4)"[from Mr. Calinog]
You know when I read that line the second time around (after our bus stat class) and heard a lecture from our CLS speaker, Mr. Peter Legaspi (he said, "1. ASK and HE will give. 2. SEEK and you will find. 3. And, KNOCK and the door will open.") I now know what the message (Psalm 37:4) want to insist to us...
But Thanks to GOD, it were all blessings in disguise. Your quotation(you have picked) and the message you got from your church. And mine(the quotations I have picked) and the lessons I got from CLS.
Yes we did not unwrapped those messages in the quotations we have picked. But GOD make HIS own way, of telling what this lines would like to tell us.
God Bless to all of us... And for our classmate that will have their extemporaneous speeches later...
GOOD night/morning... :)))
it's ok bianchi.nobody is perfect.but well,you are actually close to perfection.it's ok to commit mistakes sometimes.
I can totally relate with how you feel...specially the part where you said something about being the only one who knows or who guessed the right answer, but still refused to raise your hand and speak in front of the class...don't worry, I know there are millions of people who are like or even worse than us...just be thankful that we don't lose consciousness whenever we try to talk in front of an audience and that we've got so much room for improvement (we can even invite bedspacers **joke**) :)) I hope we'll do better in the next activities :)
lab it, nak! ang mssabi lng ni tay ganto: let nervousness be nervous of you...hehe...do your part and don't mind them...winning nmn is about overcoming your true critic...........urself! hehehe...good luck s tin nak!
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